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I have to be honest with you, I'm not exactly sad to be parting ways. It's not that we didn't have good times together. I've been so blessed with so many gifts during this time, and I don't want you to think I'm ungrateful. I met my husband and gave birth to two amazing children. I will miss certain things about you, to be sure.
It's just that I won't miss that feeling of uncertainty in the pit of my stomach as I step onto campus for a new semester. Or the frustration of not being taken seriously in the workplace because I seem "so young." I won't miss the arguments that came with the first year of marriage when two very strong-willed people were learning each others limits and quirks. I won't miss the heartache and hormonal fluctuations that came with trying to conceive. I won't miss the bed-rest and fear for the tiny life that came when we were finally successful. I won't miss the six to eight postpartum weeks that kicked my ass mentally and physically with both children.
So what will I miss? The open-mouthed baby kisses, those first precious smiles, the tiny flutter of feeling a life inside of me making itself known for the first time. I'll miss those nervous butterflies that come with a first kiss and the wonder of realizing that I'm in love and that perfect someone loves me back. I'll miss the brash confidence in my body that came with a high metabolism and a halter top. Sometimes I'll miss the carefree feeling of not being responsible for anyone but myself and the ability to stay in my pj's and play PlayStation all day.
But looking at my life now, at 30, I'll gladly accept the challenges this decade poses. I'll wear my stretch marks with pride and earn my gray hairs chasing the children you've blessed me with. So you see, it's not you, it's me. I'm glad to be 30, but I know there are plenty of girls standing at the edge of 20, waiting for you show them the women they'll become. I hope you're as kind to them as you've been with me. So thank you, and goodbye.
<--Modern Mommy and Modern Daddy in 2002
6 comments:
This was the best post! I got goosebumps! And all too true...although, parts of it do make me wonder if you have another baby in store before you're really REALLY done. (not now...later) You know I turned 32 this year and I'm still parting ways with my twenties. I guess it takes some people longer to say good-bye than others. :) Thanks for sharing this great post with us!
Love this post, even if it did leave me teary-eyed. May our 30s be the best decade yet! *giant hugs*
Very well said. Congrats!
What an amazing decade, huh? I'm almost halfway into my 30's (ACK!) and I can tell you they are pretty dang awesome. Welcome! ; )
OH and Happy Birthday!!
holy smokes, I almost cried! that was wonderful to read and very moving.
WOW- I'm turning 30 in 6 months and I have to admit I have not looked at it from this point of view. This is a very inspiring post. I became VERY depressed on my 29th birthday and have been dreading turning 30. Your positive perspective has definitely given me something to think about.
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